My parents have got so tired of nagging at me to off the comp that thay had gone to bed.  lol ;)

Tonight, only the brightest stars are visible, shinning diamond-sharp in the blueblack sky.I thought back about the time when i tried to kill myself.Not really kill lar.Hurt myself.That was during last year when i was feeling very depressed.

That night, i took a blade( the thin type where those man use to shave using old metod) A new blade though,not the one my dad used. i slashed my left wrist.There was blood, but not a lot of blood..lol Maybe i was insane at that moment.I just kinda lost my own mind, wanting to hurt myself to wake myself & to stop being sad & stuff.Nobody understands me. I've leant to keep to myself though, cos theres no use confiding in others when no one could help u.Why make them worry?

Now, as i thought back and though about kenneth's dad.I thought about how short his life was and that he was not able to enjoy that life cos of cancer, my heart went out for him.

I realised that cancer is not the worst thing that can happen to a person. and neither is dying young.Taking life for granted..living badly..these things seem far worse to me in many ways. So, i guess i won't try to hurt myself again.... 

Things that count. i'm the luckiest girl in the world. (maybe)